My Uncomfortable Mind

     I don’t want to scare anyone, away from psychiatric hospitalizations, but I will say, that my most recent experience was disruptive, loud, scary, uncomfortable, etc.      My other hospitalizations, in the past, have been peaceful and without incident.  I was able to heal and recover peacefully.  But…

Written on April 9, 2014 A Psychiatric Patient’s Prayer My Dear Lord, how my heart aches, how I long to smile and laugh again,My soul feels heavy, for those that I have lost, my Lord, I want to join you, Sweet Lord, in eternal peace, but now is not the…

     I had a bit of a temporary relapse recently, in my emotional & mental health.  I spent last week in a psychiatric ward.  I signed myself in, voluntarily, to try to save myself from my own self-destruction.  I am far too sensitive for this world, sometimes.    …

     I am starting to feel good about myself.  I am realizing that I am a great person: kind, empathetic, intelligent, artistic, always giving.      I am starting to feel good about life. Just a few years ago, life felt like an enormous uncertainty.  I wasn’t too keen…

     This is #100.   Can you believe that?  I can’t.  Because this is my 100th blog entry, I originally felt that this would be a celebratory piece.  In truth, I have something different on my mind.  I am going to use this one to make a written prayer…

     It has been a rough couple of days for me.  I am dealing with some work problems, that are leaving me feeling disheartened about my job.  It’s true, I am starting to long for more, job-wise, but I have been at my job for 5 1/2 years, and…

     My Dear Lord, it is 4 AM, and I cannot sleep.  My nights are filled with horrendous nightmares, when I do sleep. Please grant me a night’s peaceful sleep, so I may feel a bit of peace in my restless soul.  Please let me sleep like a newborn…

     My husband, Frankie & I had an interesting conversation, this morning.  I wondered aloud, about what it would be like, if I didn’t take the medications that I am on.  At present time, I take Effexor, Abilify, BusPar, Trillifon, & Neurontin.  It seems like a lot of medications,…

     I had an interesting morning, today.  I only got about 3 hours of sleep, last night, but I was on the 7:10 AM Commuterail this morning.  My destination was Boston.  Did I mention how freezing cold it was this morning?      Once in Boston, I had a…

     At times, like a lot of people, I question myself, wondering, if I am in the right occupation. Presently, I work as a part-time clerk, in the Meat Department of a supermarket.  This requires me to stock the refrigerated meat products, check for expired products, weigh and price…