My Uncomfortable Mind

     I was hospitalized, for the third time this year, just 2 weeks ago.   My second kidney infection in 4 months.   My physician is not happy.   I can only say, that, I am so happy to be alive.  In December, 2017, I developed  Pneumonia.   In January, 2018, I developed…

     All through the physical ailments that life has subjected me to, recently, I have been haunted about a life I led almost 30 years ago.      I met a really adorable Italian guy in my early 20’s.  I knew exactly when I became pregnant.   Then one morning…

p.p1 {margin: 0.0px 0.0px 0.0px 0.0px; font: 12.0px ‘Helvetica Neue’; color: #454545} I haven’t written, in this blog,  entitled : “My Uncomfortable Mind”, in almost a year.   Yeah, I am disappointed in myself.   The truth is, that I felt shitty for most of this time period,   I did not have…

     The frequency of my blog, has slowed down, over time.   I desire to write positive things, but I am suffering, deep within my soul, from negative things.      It started several months ago.  A close friend of mine had been seriously assaulted,  her head bashed onto the…

     A lot has been happening to me, physically, emotionally and mentally.   I have been vomiting just about every  day.  But what is most concerning, has been sleep disturbances.  I see strange creatures crawling the walls, while awakening.  I have hallucinated also strange boys in my  bedroom.  …

     Oh my Lord, I am calling to you again.      My husband knew of a friend,  a friend  of his sister, named D…She had been married for 20 years to an asshole.     After her divorce,  She got involved with a guy that,  I will  only…

     I have been suffering, within.   My husband, and I,  came home from, Jamaica, about a month ago. It was a magnificent vacation.  But for some reason, I ache within.   I want to go back.      The water, and the beach, at our resort, was so…

     My husband and I, recently took a vacation, to a resort in Jamaica.   It was something that we have never done before.   We have taken a few mini trips, like business trips.  They were  not true vacations.      Before our vacation to Jamaica, I was…

      The holidays have passed.   Thanksgiving day, Christmas Day, and New Year’s Day, went relatively smoothly.   I felt numb and scared, getting through it though.       Every year, in the holiday season, I feel irritable, angry, frightened.   I have thoughts of my brother…

     I am feeling rather lost.  About a week before Christmas, I began feeling so numb.  I did not make a list, to send out Christmas cards,   I did not make a list of people that I wanted to send gifts to.      I did help my…