My Uncomfortable Mind

I have a ton of political thoughts, now. But , I know that, I can’t say one freaking word, of my compassionate demeanor, or I could be shipped, to God knows where…Yes, this is really happening.

I have never been a disciplined writer. I wrote when my soul felt motivated. Since I write about my own experiences, I find that it leads to profound hostilities from those who, can’t admit their abuse, cruelty, perverse behavior. It is year 2025, and yet, humans, are still vicious, to…

I have many thoughts, but I don’t even know how to start, my mind is in chaos. As I have mentioned, I have gone no contact with my mother. She is a narcissist who spent my childhood in bars and sleazy dives…as a result, so did I. Her men were…

I am Christine. I am 57 years old and this blog is about my struggles with CPTSD, caused by past childhood and domestic trauma, Schizoaffective Disorder, Generalized Anxiety Disorder, Major Depression, serious physical illnesses and my odyssey of life and recovery. Check out the rest of my blog and follow…

March 23, 2025 I think what surprises me most is that I have made amazing choices and changes in my life, that I never anticipated, that I never knew possible. My parents, I believe are both narcissists, my father a pedophile and probably a psychopath. They were both abusive parents.…

My mother and I have not have a good relationship, it was complicated. I have been through so many distressing and traumatic experiences with her, and because of her, because of her poor choices, in life and in men. I, honestly believe that my mother has mental health and personality…

Over the past 15(?) years, I have written about my life experiences and abuse of my father and his family, all these years. I have not said a lot about my mother, because I had a relationship with her, at least tried to have a relationship, even though she is…

Returning I am sorry that I have been so distant for years. I can only explain, I was dying inside, barely functioning. It has been years since I have said much. Around my apartment, in boxes and drawers, I have written my heart and soul out, on notebook paper. but…

Sometimes, you suffer unmercifully in life. Sometimes you can’t totally understand why you have been neglected, mistreated, abused. You may try to protect others who are suffering, friends, family, by protesting or speaking out loud. But you are treated like trash for trying to help others. I listen to the…

May 23, 2023  ·  I wrote this prayer on 4/9/14 I have, somewhere, other modern day prayers, I hope to find them. My Dear Lord, How my heart hurts now. How I long to laugh and smile again. My soul feels heavy, for all those that I have lost, my Lord.…