My Uncomfortable Mind

     Well, although I survived Nana’s funeral and seeing my abusive father, I did not anticipate the repercussions.  I didn’t realize, that I would open the closet door, that held the skeletons.  I didn’t realize the pain, that was about to come.  As my therapist said, “It was a…

     I attended my Nana’s wake and funeral this past week.  I am left with a variety of emotions.          I am heartbroken at the loss of my grandmother, we had a lot of interesting years together, she was an essential part of my life.  But…

     My Nana passed away yesterday, and the grief is reaching me on so many levels.  My Nana and I hadn’t spoken in a couple of years, though I would send her cards.  She moved to Florida and  never told me that  she was going. Nana is my father’s…

     I thought that I would give an update of my status at this present time.  I think that overall, for me, I am doing pretty damn good!  Parts of this summer were very hard because I had days where I had flashbacks, bad memories, and even auditory hallucinations.…

     I think that one of the things, that carries me through all of my days, is my strong faith in God.    Every day, I pray, usually for someone else, but on my worst days I have pray for me.  And God listens to me, answering and fulfilling…

     Recently, a massacre was committed in a movie theater killing a dozen people, and injuring dozens more.  I refuse to name the killer because, I don’t believe he deserves recognition.  I believe that he was mentally sick, but because he prepared for the killings in secrecy, I believe…

     I know that “My Uncomfortable Mind” has a lot of tragedy written in it, but I want to make it clear, that I have a lot of happy days, and I am forever thankful for them.  I am also thankful for the people and animals that love me,…

     I’ll be glad when the summer is over.  I hate the summer and I also hate the holiday season, because they bring up a lot of old, bad memories and flashbacks.  Sure, its beautiful out there but the heat reminds me of when I visited my father in…

     Yesterday, while waiting at the Lowell Train Station, I had an interesting, spiritual experience.  I think that I heard the voice of God.  But he spoke to me intuitively, not in a booming tone as one might expect.      I had just taken the train to Lowell,…

     Yesterday was a bit of a challenge for me, and I’m not quite sure why.  But I suspect it has to do with it being in a summer month, which brings up a lot of bad memories and brings past emotions to the surface.  Or maybe it was…