My Uncomfortable Mind

     Three days ago, I saw both my Psychiatrist, and my therapist, and they both agreed that I am Depressed.  I didn’t fully realize it, until then, because I wasn’t crying a lot, I wasn’t at the point of wanting to jump off of a bridge, in other words,…

     I have noticed, that something about me is not quite right.  My mood isn’t too bad, but I am not as happy as I have been at times in the past.      I used to wake up between 4 and 5 AM, every morning, active before the…

     I am happy to report, that I am doing much better, since my last blog entry.  It took an increase in Abilify, a drug that works as an anti-psychotic, and also gives a boost to anti-depressants, and 6 days home from work, but today went smoothly.    …

     After my last blog entry, I thought that I was doing better, but it only lasted a few days.   I saw my psychiatrist on January 14, because I felt anxious.  She lowered one mild anti-anxiety medication dosage, because I didn’t feel that it was working, and she…

     The holidays are over now, and the new year, 2013, has begun.  It was not a good beginning for me, mainly because, I did something wrong, and now, I’m having a very hard time forgiving myself.      I won’t get into the details of what I did,…

     Well, I must be honest, for several days after Christmas & New Year’s, I fell apart again.      I made a mistake and hurt my husband.  I did not mean to hurt him.  I was in a bad place, emotionally, and did the wrong thing.    …

     I am feeling well, and empowered again.   This is truly a Christmas gift, something spiritual and divine.  God hears my prayers, these days.  It’s true, I fell into despair before Christmas, deep despair.  But it’s also true, that I had the strength to climb out of it.…

     Today, I am feeling quite a bit better than I had felt for the previous 3 days.  I still do not feel 100% like myself, but I could cope today, with life.      Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday, I fell apart, I couldn’t think clearly, I had nightmares…

     It is, indeed, the Holiday Season.  And is it hitting me hard.  I feel completely anxious, depressed, overwhelmed, as I seem to feel every year, at Christmas time.      Yesterday morning, I woke up extremely anxious.  I became angry with my husband because he didn’t have much…

     I have been saddened by another massacre, committed, in an elementary school, in Connecticut.  The shooter was supposedly mentally ill.  This sickens me, because innocent children died, unmercifully.  And it sickens me, that because of this killer, the mentally ill population are given a bad reputation, therefore, increasing…