My Uncomfortable Mind

     My Nana passed away yesterday, and the grief is reaching me on so many levels.  My Nana and I hadn’t spoken in a couple of years, though I would send her cards.  She moved to Florida and  never told me that  she was going. Nana is my father’s…

     I thought that I would give an update of my status at this present time.  I think that overall, for me, I am doing pretty damn good!  Parts of this summer were very hard because I had days where I had flashbacks, bad memories, and even auditory hallucinations.…

     I think that one of the things, that carries me through all of my days, is my strong faith in God.    Every day, I pray, usually for someone else, but on my worst days I have pray for me.  And God listens to me, answering and fulfilling…

     Recently, a massacre was committed in a movie theater killing a dozen people, and injuring dozens more.  I refuse to name the killer because, I don’t believe he deserves recognition.  I believe that he was mentally sick, but because he prepared for the killings in secrecy, I believe…

     I know that “My Uncomfortable Mind” has a lot of tragedy written in it, but I want to make it clear, that I have a lot of happy days, and I am forever thankful for them.  I am also thankful for the people and animals that love me,…

     I’ll be glad when the summer is over.  I hate the summer and I also hate the holiday season, because they bring up a lot of old, bad memories and flashbacks.  Sure, its beautiful out there but the heat reminds me of when I visited my father in…

     Yesterday, while waiting at the Lowell Train Station, I had an interesting, spiritual experience.  I think that I heard the voice of God.  But he spoke to me intuitively, not in a booming tone as one might expect.      I had just taken the train to Lowell,…

     Yesterday was a bit of a challenge for me, and I’m not quite sure why.  But I suspect it has to do with it being in a summer month, which brings up a lot of bad memories and brings past emotions to the surface.  Or maybe it was…

     A lot has happened over the past 6 months.  But it has all been for the better.      I decided not to undergo ECT…Electro-Convulsive Therapy…shock treatments, anymore.      They did help me, they re-booted my brain after 9 months of undergoing treatments, but it scared the…

     This time of year, the summer months, are very hard for me, and I usually don’t cope as well as I would like to.   It brings up a lot of memories that I wish that I didn’t have, because during the summer, I would have to fly…