My Uncomfortable Mind

     I, am still not, feeling, my happiest.  I am still dragging along through life.  I feel irritable and quiet, detached from a lot of life.  I have been trying to remain active, even though, I don’t want to be.  I want to curl up in bed and sleep,…

       I am struggling, less since my last blog entry, but I still feel “Blah”.  In other words, I don’t feel like doing anything.  Work seems harder, though I am getting through it, and my house is a mess.  But I don’t really care at all, that’s the…

     Three days ago, I saw both my Psychiatrist, and my therapist, and they both agreed that I am Depressed.  I didn’t fully realize it, until then, because I wasn’t crying a lot, I wasn’t at the point of wanting to jump off of a bridge, in other words,…

     I have noticed, that something about me is not quite right.  My mood isn’t too bad, but I am not as happy as I have been at times in the past.      I used to wake up between 4 and 5 AM, every morning, active before the…

     I am happy to report, that I am doing much better, since my last blog entry.  It took an increase in Abilify, a drug that works as an anti-psychotic, and also gives a boost to anti-depressants, and 6 days home from work, but today went smoothly.    …

     After my last blog entry, I thought that I was doing better, but it only lasted a few days.   I saw my psychiatrist on January 14, because I felt anxious.  She lowered one mild anti-anxiety medication dosage, because I didn’t feel that it was working, and she…

     The holidays are over now, and the new year, 2013, has begun.  It was not a good beginning for me, mainly because, I did something wrong, and now, I’m having a very hard time forgiving myself.      I won’t get into the details of what I did,…

     Well, I must be honest, for several days after Christmas & New Year’s, I fell apart again.      I made a mistake and hurt my husband.  I did not mean to hurt him.  I was in a bad place, emotionally, and did the wrong thing.    …

     I am feeling well, and empowered again.   This is truly a Christmas gift, something spiritual and divine.  God hears my prayers, these days.  It’s true, I fell into despair before Christmas, deep despair.  But it’s also true, that I had the strength to climb out of it.…

     Today, I am feeling quite a bit better than I had felt for the previous 3 days.  I still do not feel 100% like myself, but I could cope today, with life.      Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday, I fell apart, I couldn’t think clearly, I had nightmares…