My Uncomfortable Mind

     It is late at night, as I write this blog, and the sounds of The Rolling Stones, on my stereo, are attempting to drown out, the sounds of the rain, thunder and lightening, outside of my open window.  It’s a little frightening, as the lightening has struck close…

     Have you ever had a nightmare, that just haunted you, all day long?  A dream so disturbing to you, that you can’t believe that you dreamed it?  Yes, I had one of those nightmares, early this morning.      I haven’t mentioned it a lot, but I have…

     As you know, I am battling PTSD and Schizoaffective Disorder, and now Peri-menopause.  Life has been difficult lately, because, I am having a lot of  horrible hot flashes, and heart palpitations, night sweats, etc.  I am losing weight also because I just don’t feel like eating, I have…

     It has been 5 days since my last blog, and it never ceases to amaze me, how time changes things.   I am on vacation this week, for a much-needed rest.      Emotionally, I am feeling good, I am in a happy mood, and I am happy…

     Today is Thursday, and my much-needed vacation has started.  Hooray!  I am so happy!  I am so relieved.  I only work part-time, but I’ve been so ill these past 5 weeks.  I need a break.      I wondered, if I’d make it, or if I’d fall apart.…

     It has been only 2 days, since my last blog update, but I feel so much better, than I had been feeling.  And I am so pleased.  Thank You, Lord!      As you probably know, I battle Schizoaffective Disorder and Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder, but lately, I have…

     I am feeling worn-out, these days.  This peri-menopause thing, has destroyed my appetite and my ability to sleep.  I am basically struggling to get through the days.  I feel like I could crash and burn, at any time now.      I did call my psychiatrist, yesterday, and…

     One week ago, on a cold, rainy, windy Friday, I went to my doctor’s appointment, by public transportation, only to be told that my appointment was for the following Friday.  I told them that I was very upset because they gave me inaccurate information.  So, they agreed to…

     It is official, I am in peri-menopause, and it is kicking my ass.  My days are now-filled with terrible hot flashes, which are causing my heart to race, and are causing shortness of breath, consequently scaring the Hell out of me.  I am becoming overly emotional, crying easily,…

     One of the things, that I have done, to try to help myself, is engaging in minimal television watching.  Television is filled with violence, trauma, and  tragedy.  I find that watching television brings back bad memories, and triggers flashbacks, negative thoughts, paranoia, which leads to depression in me.…