My Uncomfortable Mind

     It is just after 3:30 AM, as I write this.  I originally, got out of bed at about 2:15 AM.   This happens a lot, in my life, these days, or rather, nights, I should say.      Most nights, I have at least one bad dream…some nights,…

     I hate to admit it or even talk about it, but the Holiday Season, of 2013, did not go well for me. I should have written about it, while it was happening, but in hindsight, it was all one, big whirlwind.      I will try to tell…

     I have been writing my blog, for close to 2 years now.  I consider it to be my biggest accomplishment in life, at this point.  In truth, I am exposing my mind and feelings to the WORLD.      I am giving a glimpse into the mind of…

     Life has been going pretty well for me, at this point.   My wonderful husband took me on another adventure, in late November.  It did have a couple of tear-filled moments, but it was wonderful, nonetheless.      We rented a little log cabin again, in the Berkshires…

     I have had a lot of trouble sleeping lately, and I have found that this leads to bad things.  I am learning, that it is stress, to my body & mind, that causes my psychosis.      Just recently, I had been awake for about 40 hours.  I…

     In case, you are new at reading my blog entitled “My Uncomfortable Mind”, I will tell you a little about it. I have been writing it for more than a year, and it contains 80, very personal journal entries about my life. What makes it so personal, is…

     I had another nightmare very recently.  I have had a hard time deciding, if I should write about it. It is like my other nightmares, highly disturbing.   As you know, I have PTSD, and the main cause of this, was childhood sexual abuse, by my own father.…

     In all honesty, just last week, I felt, as if my world was caving in.      Three weeks ago, I was having auditory  hallucinations, I was hearing my name being called repeatedly, and I was hearing screaming.  This started while my husband was away, in China, on…

     I should have written sooner, but my mind has been foggy, and a bit confused.  I cannot concentrate. From September 20-28, my husband, Frankie, had been in China, on a business trip.  I wrote at the beginning of his trip, while Hong Kong, was having a Typhoon.  I…

     My husband, Frankie, is in China, at this time, on a business trip.  I thought of going with him, but it would have cost thousands of dollars. Also, the management, at his company, seemed negative, on spouses, attending this trip.      I cried several times, and asked…