My Uncomfortable Mind

Sometimes, you suffer unmercifully in life. Sometimes you can’t totally understand why you have been neglected, mistreated, abused. You may try to protect others who are suffering, friends, family, by protesting or speaking out loud. But you are treated like trash for trying to help others. I listen to the…

May 23, 2023  ·  I wrote this prayer on 4/9/14 I have, somewhere, other modern day prayers, I hope to find them. My Dear Lord, How my heart hurts now. How I long to laugh and smile again. My soul feels heavy, for all those that I have lost, my Lord.…

 ·   ·  Christmas is coming. I am still dealing with family dysfunction. This time I of year, I want to go to Heaven. If you have read my posts in , My Uncomfortable Mind, over the past 15 years, you know that I have too much PTSD and most of my…

 ·   ·  Well, apparently I have family members who feel that I have caused my own problems by not telling anybody that I was being sexually violated as a child. How is a 6 year old child supposed to tell anybody about sexual abuse against them when, my father told me…

I have learned the hard way, that if you speak out about abuse, what you or others that you love have experienced, you will be treated with hate and disdain, because the people around you will not accept it. This could be because some are the offenders who hurt you,…

Sometimes you have so many thoughts in your head, things that are real and truthful. But the scared parts of your brain, you try to repress it, and there is no resolution. Your mind only contains the scariest, hidden memories. All I can do is pray and try to forgive…

      Today is Easter Sunday, April 21, 2019.      I had a wonderful  Easter with my husband, my in-laws, and my nieces.       Leading up to it, the days before, was pure Hell.  I spent yesterday morning, the day before Easter, in the Emergency Room.…

   I have been trying to write new posts, but I feel will like I have failed.  For over a year.    I have been self-absorbed, in my physical health.    But truthfully, I have been suffering, emotionally and mentally.     Physically, I have had Diabetes Type 2 for…

     I was hospitalized, for the third time this year, just 2 weeks ago.   My second kidney infection in 4 months.   My physician is not happy.   I can only say, that, I am so happy to be alive.  In December, 2017, I developed  Pneumonia.   In January, 2018, I developed…

     All through the physical ailments that life has subjected me to, recently, I have been haunted about a life I led almost 30 years ago.      I met a really adorable Italian guy in my early 20’s.  I knew exactly when I became pregnant.   Then one morning…