It is just after 3:30 AM, as I write this. I originally, got out of bed at about 2:15 AM. This happens a lot, in my life, these days, or rather, nights, I should say.
Most nights, I have at least one bad dream…some nights, the dreams are horrifying. This is because I have PTSD.
I take medication to help me sleep, but unfortunately, it doesn’t keep me asleep all night long. Honestly, I’m afraid, to take any more medication. I think that sleep disorders often go hand in hand with mental disorders. For many years, I have taken sleep medication. But it got worse, when I started peri-menopause.
So, I have a very odd sleep schedule…..sometimes, in the days, I fall asleep with no warning, and end up sleeping most of the day & night. Sometimes, I wake up at stupid-o’clock in the morning and stay up, until I fall asleep, in the very early evening.
But I will say one thing about being up in the wee early morning hours….It is so quiet, so peaceful. I often feel closest to the Lord at this hour, and find myself praying sometimes. It is becoming so easy, to treasure this time.
Hello,
I’m Christine
My name is Christine and I am almost 45 years old. This is my very first blog. I am writing because I feel like I am living in a closet. But I am not gay, I am mentally ill, I have Schizoaffective Disorder. I also have PTSD (Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder). Not many people know this about me. I have been fearful of “coming out”, because, frankly, the human population has not always been kind to people with mental illness. But isn’t it time that we come to accept all of our bothers & sisters, regardless of their differences?
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