My Uncomfortable Mind

     I am feeling worn-out, these days.  This peri-menopause thing, has destroyed my appetite and my ability to sleep.  I am basically struggling to get through the days.  I feel like I could crash and burn, at any time now.      I did call my psychiatrist, yesterday, and…

     One week ago, on a cold, rainy, windy Friday, I went to my doctor’s appointment, by public transportation, only to be told that my appointment was for the following Friday.  I told them that I was very upset because they gave me inaccurate information.  So, they agreed to…

     It is official, I am in peri-menopause, and it is kicking my ass.  My days are now-filled with terrible hot flashes, which are causing my heart to race, and are causing shortness of breath, consequently scaring the Hell out of me.  I am becoming overly emotional, crying easily,…

     One of the things, that I have done, to try to help myself, is engaging in minimal television watching.  Television is filled with violence, trauma, and  tragedy.  I find that watching television brings back bad memories, and triggers flashbacks, negative thoughts, paranoia, which leads to depression in me.…

     On Tuesday, I was having a hard time talking and breathing, so I called my boss at work, and told him that I was coming down with an infection or virus, and asked him if he could get another person to cover my shift on Wednesday.  He told…

     So far, I have written 52 blog posts.  Can you believe it?  I know I can’t.  LOL!      In case you wonder what I look like, I am Caucasian, of Irish & English descent.  I have brown eyes, and graying, yet also dark brown hair (I color…

     I saw my therapist on Tuesday.  She told me that she “didn’t need to worry” about me at this point, that I was doing pretty well.  Yes, I have a lot of times where I feel down, but things are on the upswing, currently.  It has been a…

     I had a nightmare last night.  I dreamed that I was visiting some new friends.  It started off as a nice visit, we were laughing and talking.  They lived in a very big house.  For some reason, I opened a door and entered a room.  I was appalled…

     The past few days have been good, though I have done a lot of sleeping, much more than usual.  I don’t think the sleeping is “curing” me, but rather, is the symptom of my tired soul.       Today, I went to a center, affiliated with NAMI…

     Yesterday, I worked, a 7 hour day. That’s a long day for me. My supermarket job is very physical, lots of lifting, and I think that at 45 years of age, I am getting too old to work 7 hour days, doing that type of job, because my…