My Uncomfortable Mind

Over the past 15(?) years, I have written about my life experiences and abuse of my father and his family, all these years. I have not said a lot about my mother, because I had a relationship with her, at least tried to have a relationship, even though she is a narcissist. I tried so hard to have a good relationship with her. I had originally planned to write about her after she passed away.

Well, she has done a great job, of making me feel like I am worthless, making me feel unloved, taking everything she could from me, whether emotional, financial or material. So I cut ties after her several attempts, by her, to hurt me deeply. I am just done. I am 57 years old, I have life threatening medical issues, and CPTSD, and mental health issues. I do not want any of her shit anymore. I want love and happiness. I have no intention of ever speaking to her again.

I found out, as well, that my father has been stalking me, reading this blog. At first I felt pretty freaked out by this. He tried to kill my mother, he tried to kill me..I know that he also sexually, physically and emotionally abused my half brother and half sister, I know, because I saw this at 7 years old.

My husband said that I should use this as an opportunity, to fully expose my parents and confront them and say everything that I feel about this situation. I think that he has a good point. So, Mom, Dad, I have lost all respect for you both. You will have a lot of reading material, by me, now . You do not deserve my unconditional love. After all, you did not give it to me.