May 23, 2023  · 

I wrote this prayer on 4/9/14

I have, somewhere, other modern day prayers, I hope to find them.

My Dear Lord,

How my heart hurts now.

How I long to laugh and smile again.

My soul feels heavy, for all those that I have lost, my Lord. I want to join you, but I know deep down, that now is not the time for me.

Please guide my doctors and nurses, and counselors to bring me to normality, inner peace, to stop screaming in my sleep.

My Lord, my soul is lost, I am in my own private hell.

Please, please, please, take me away from this chaos, just cuddle me, Lord. Guide me to the right path in life. Amen


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I’m Christine

My name is Christine and I am almost 45 years old. This is my very first blog. I am writing because I feel like I am living in a closet. But I am not gay, I am mentally ill, I have Schizoaffective Disorder. I also have PTSD (Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder). Not many people know this about me. I have been fearful of “coming out”, because, frankly, the human population has not always been kind to people with mental illness. But isn’t it time that we come to accept all of our bothers & sisters, regardless of their differences?

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