My Uncomfortable Mind

   I have been trying to write new posts, but I feel will like I have failed.  For over a year.
   I have been self-absorbed, in my physical health.
   But truthfully, I have been suffering, emotionally and mentally.
    Physically, I have had Diabetes Type 2 for like 11 or 12 years.   But, in  late January, 2018, I developed Diabetic Ketoacidosis.  My blood sugar escalated, I could not stop vomiting, I had diarrhea, I was incredibly thirsty, but the scary part was that I had water on the brain, and brain swelling.  Honestly, I felt close to dying.  I spent 4 days in the Intensive Care Unit.
     In  July of 2018, I was hospitalized  , for a kidney infection.  And then in November, 2018, I was hospitalized for another kidney infection.   I thought that emotionally, that I  was doing OK.
      Yeah, right…….
      My husband kept telling me that my “My Closet Door In My Brain” was about to open.   I didn’t believe him.  And then, within the past week, I watched a program about Michael Jackson’s Neverland.  It described, by victims how Michael Jackson had violated them.
      This completely set me off…..I fell apart,  remembering how I have been sexually abused by my sperm donor and 5 other men.
      Oh, my Lord…..please take away the pain…..I am dying inside.