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I haven’t written, in this blog,  entitled : “My Uncomfortable Mind”, in almost a year.   Yeah, I am disappointed in myself.   The truth is, that I felt shitty for most of this time period,   I did not have any motivation to write.
      In December,  2017, I developed Pneumonia.  In the few months before this, I had felt,  exhausted, unmotivated, and I had been vomiting a lot.
      In late January, 2018, I was vomiting uncontrollably, I had diarrhea.   I was unbelievably thirsty, yet couldn’t keep even a drop of liquid down.  
       I went to my doctor’s office, where they soon sent me to the Emergency Room of a prominent Boston hospital.   I had terrible dehydration.  I remember trying to ask a nurse for water.   All I could say was :” Um, um, um”.   I could barely speak,  I could not think.  I could not tell the doctor my home address.   My brain was swollen, my brain had water on it.   I had Diabetic Ketoacidosis, and I came close to dying.  
      I spent 3 nights in the Intensive Care Unit, where they pumped me full of IV Insulin.   I survived, but it has been rough, ever since.
      I developed diabetes, as the result of taking an antipsychotic, that caused it, at least 15 years ago.
My diabetes was well controlled with pills up until January 2018.  Now, I am testing my blood sugar several times a day, and administering insulin, at least once a day,  then as needed.
       In July, 2018,  I was vomiting for about  a week, with diarrhea, , and I couldn’t think again.   The nurse at my health plan, told me to go to the hospital, as soon as possible.  It turns out that I had a bad kidney infection, and I spent 4 nights in the hospital, with IV antibiotics pumped into me. 
      My friend and Pastor Judy, said that it doesn’t seem fair that I should have to suffer mentally, emotionally, and now physically.  She is SO right.
     

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I’m Christine

My name is Christine and I am almost 45 years old. This is my very first blog. I am writing because I feel like I am living in a closet. But I am not gay, I am mentally ill, I have Schizoaffective Disorder. I also have PTSD (Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder). Not many people know this about me. I have been fearful of “coming out”, because, frankly, the human population has not always been kind to people with mental illness. But isn’t it time that we come to accept all of our bothers & sisters, regardless of their differences?

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