My Uncomfortable Mind

#124…..Please Lord, Let Me Write

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 My Dearest Lord,
I think that I am in need of your assistance.  It has become quite a struggle to write,  It’s also become very quirky.
My fingers are a bit twitchy, no doubt, the result of anti-psychotic medications that I must ingest.
My brain is affected.  I often think one word, yet write another word.  I often think one word, yet speak another word.
It has been over 3 months, since I attempted to end my life.   Emotionally, I am confused.  Part of me wishes that I could have gone to Heaven.  Part of me feels ashamed at what I have done to myself, & how it affected others.  I feel a bit flat, but happiness, is approaching, I feel.
Please, Lord, don’t let me lose my ability to write.

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3 responses to “#124…..Please Lord, Let Me Write”

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    Anonymous

    The Lord will surely deliver you from the wilderness

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    Anonymous

    Your blog is a huge source of insight. I can feel the cycles of your life as things get better or you start to struggle. I will be praying for you.

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    Anonymous

    Thank you, for taking the time to read my blog. Most of all, thank you for your prayers.

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Hello,

I’m Christine

My name is Christine and I am almost 45 years old. This is my very first blog. I am writing because I feel like I am living in a closet. But I am not gay, I am mentally ill, I have Schizoaffective Disorder. I also have PTSD (Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder). Not many people know this about me. I have been fearful of “coming out”, because, frankly, the human population has not always been kind to people with mental illness. But isn’t it time that we come to accept all of our bothers & sisters, regardless of their differences?

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