I felt completely miserable for a few weeks after quitting my job. My sleep cycle was wrecked. I never wanted to eat. I was crying a lot. I felt hostile towards my husband. I couldn’t really help my friends that were in need of help. I was pissed off at the world. Just totally depressed.
When I saw my therapist and psychiatrist last week, however, things began to change. My psychiatrist increased my Seroquel dosage. I am still adjusting to it, but it does make me feel quite drunk. It does take away a lot of my anxiety and irritability, though. Eventually, I will adjust to it.
Both my therapist and psychiatrist felt that I had made the right decision in quitting my job and getting out of that toxic environment. I felt depressed because, I loved working there up until the end. I love to work, period. So I was in mourning, basically.
I felt angry at my husband, I couldn’t even look him in the eyes. I was angry, because I felt guilty, that I no longer had my income from the supermarket to provide. I felt guilty because I was so depressed, that he had to take care of me. I was contemplating jumping off the edge of the Earth.
I don’t feel that way now, thanks to the good Lord, and the wonderful people that He put in my life. I am starting to feel pretty good again. Soon, I will try to find another occupation. I am still having bad dreams about work, though. But, they will disappear, in time.
I just want to say thank you, to everyone who supported me and prayed for me.
My Uncomfortable Mind 
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