Well, I must be honest, for several days after Christmas & New Year’s, I fell apart again.
I made a mistake and hurt my husband. I did not mean to hurt him. I was in a bad place, emotionally, and did the wrong thing.
My husband and I have talked about it, and he is no longer angry with me and he forgives me, but I am having a hard time forgiving myself. I hated myself for hurting my husband. I didn’t feel that I deserved his love anymore. I was so upset at myself, that I considered suicide.
Fortunately, I was able to talk to both my Therapist and my Pastor, and they both told me the same thing. They told me that I was a good person who made a bad mistake and I was too hard on myself, that I need to forgive myself.
My depression is lifting, Thank God. I am also sad because I had to say goodbye to an old friend.
But I am hopeful, that things will get better.
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Please remember that you are a individual worthy of being loved, and that you have people who care about you. I thank god for Judy and Gail being able to support and guide you in your time of need.
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I’m Christine
My name is Christine and I am almost 45 years old. This is my very first blog. I am writing because I feel like I am living in a closet. But I am not gay, I am mentally ill, I have Schizoaffective Disorder. I also have PTSD (Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder). Not many people know this about me. I have been fearful of “coming out”, because, frankly, the human population has not always been kind to people with mental illness. But isn’t it time that we come to accept all of our bothers & sisters, regardless of their differences?
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